zenmama

Hello mamas!

I’m Zenia (pronounced as zeh-nia), and the voice behind zenmama.

I started this space to spill the milk on my journey through pregnancy and motherhood with my firstborn. I’m now a mother to two boisterous boys and a NICU-mama, and here you’ll find honest stories about pregnancy, premature birth, NICU life, and the beautiful, messy, exhausting bits of raising a family.

Whether you’re expecting, raising little ones, or finding your way through motherhood, you’re in the right place. I’m glad you’re here!

read on, mama!
about zenmama

  • A letter to my firstborn

    Becoming a mother changed my life forever. Then, baby #2 came along, and suddenly, my time was divided between two little boys, my family, and finding myself again. This is a letter to my firstborn—a reminder that even when my time changed, my love for my firstborn never did.

  • The NICU trauma never truly leaves, not fully

    I thought I’d left the NICU behind the day my baby came home. I hadn’t. The alarms, the guilt, the vigilance—they followed me quietly into ordinary life. This is my honest account of NICU trauma: not formally diagnosed, but deeply lived. If you’ve carried this too, I see you.

  • My baby’s recovery from chylothorax in the NICU (Part 3/3)

    After months of uncertainty, surgeries and setbacks, our baby’s fight with chylothorax was far from over. In this final chapter, I share his recovery in the NICU, the unexpected complications we faced, and how, in the midst of it all, our family slowly found hope again.